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An Apology

to those that I’ve hurt. Whether it may be recent  or in the past, I know I may have not expressed myself. I won’t make up excuses, I will only give full-hearted explanations. There isn’t any time for me  to plead for forgiveness  or another chance. I know where I can find my redemption. It’s only fair, It’s only right,  It’s only just, to express how truly sorry I am for betraying close friends,  leaving friends in the dark,  and letting loved ones hang on a cliff. For you people, my words will never be enough  to show how much  I love you, care for you, and genuinely respect you. Don’t accept my apology, if you don’t want to. Just please know, From the bottom  and utmost sincerity  of my heart I am truly sorry.  I think it’s worth it If you knew.

The 6th Summer

My full size bed  should feel so much emptier, more spacious with the distance between us. I should be missing everything  about your lips. They way they they tasted, they way the looked,  the way they revealed your pearly whites whenever you gave me your perfect, entrancing smile. I should want you here, next to me. Whether it’s in the passenger seat watching me sing and dance along to Earth, Wind, and Fire or sitting in the seat next to me at AMC watching Jay Gatsby throw the biggest party.... I should want you here. I should miss your dyed hair, the way it shone  in the summer's sun, and  the flowery, sweet fragrance it had after I waited so long for you to get out of the shower. I should miss  the simplicity of walks in the park, hand in hand, wondering what kind of lunch or dinner to eat. Your bright brown eyes, should keep me captivated. They should hold me down and charm me  into a state of weakness. When the tears puff your eyes, when the laughter makes you squint, I shoul

the best thing I'll ever learn in basketball.

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This is my basketball team. We were formed to represent FACE, the Filipino club we have in William Paterson University. I have never played at a competitive level of basketball. I've played on the team in 4th - 6th grade but that'll never really count. I recently just closed up a season in Willy P's intramural league. And what a terrible, yet encouraging experience it was. We were at a great disadvantage. Most of us haven't played competitive basketball or lacked some experience. The worst disadvantage was our height. We're all just a bunch of short Filipino guys with an average height of probably 5' 8". We played against teams who had an average height that was taller than our big man. We lacked team experience and chemistry: passes were't going where they should've, some of us didn't even want to pass the ball, there were moments of no communication, we tried to out-fancy each other with our play styles, we didn't know how to control

just grow

"who you are in high school is not who you will be in college and who you are in college is not who you will be when you are 30. when you accept that you are malleable and ever-changing, you will be less resistant to new ways of thinking and being and you will grow into the beautiful person you are meant to become. resist the urge to remain stagnant. there are always things to learn about the world and yourself. let yourself learn them."