Let It Be A Sweet, Sweet Sound.

I find it funny how we want something so badly. Once we find no need or no specialty, we can just get rid of it or dispose of it so easily. Why do we spend so much time searching for something that we can just…love…something that we’ve been dying to have and couldn’t wait to have…except when you finally get your own selfish hands on it, you still look at with the same eyes of fascination and awe of when you didn’t have it before. Whether we we didn’t hesitate to drop it or had to find legitimate reasons to let go….then, we never really  loved  whatever it was held on to.  We all know what  eyes  I’m talking about. The drying eyes we all of a sudden get when we’ve focused all of our attention onto something and our brain forgets to tell our eyes to blink. The enlarged eyes we get when we see a phenomenon of a night sky or seeing something breathtaking directly before us. The pupils of our very eyes dilate in the dark to let more light in….But, they also dilate when we see someone att

Procrastination at it's best right now. John Mayer is playing on Spotify, a lit candle burns as I attempt to finish my research paper, my mind and body energized from the cranberry Red Bull. But, how did I ever get you so energized to run in all the corners and crevices of my mind? Even at this time, any normal mind, unlike mine, will be fast asleep after a day's worth of reality's work. Not me. I lay in bed not just attempting to finish the homework I haven't started, but to propel the late-night thoughts that are so ready to consume everything that is good in me and everything that is strong enough to fight whatever menaces against my heart. It's funny when you procrastinate, the regrets always smack you in the face as if saying, "You can do better than this." But, all you ever find yourself saying is, "I will next time."