my last hurrah.
I'm 20. A young age but also an age that brings me on the verge of adulthood. I recently finished my last court for a friend's debut/18th birthday party. I definitely felt that I shouldn't be doing it when I was asked to be the escort. I'm at least 2 years older than most of the people in her court. Not much of an age gap, but I think being in 5 other courts for debuts and sweet sixteens in the past was enough for me. But, I was chosen to be the escort.
Let me be real....this court was the most stressful ever. But, once the party came and ended, all the stress was well worth it.
This is (hands down) my favorite court. I'm probably going to get hate from all of the girls' courts I was in before. I haven't made new friends in while. Well...I haven't made new friends in a court that I wanted to follow up with. Everyone was just so awesome. I can't possibly find any other words to describe the amount of fun and joy I had with everyone being in this court.
The stress of this court was very difficult to cope with. Just ask the the debutante. It really reminded that God's plan is what we should follow. Not everything will work the way we want it to....what changes everything is whether or not we give it to God.
It's done...the practices, the stress, and the list of courts. I guess I'm announcing my retirement from courts. But this one, my last one as an escort, is truly something I did not want to end at all. I have not been doing well with things leaving or ending. My close friend moved to Florida, my older cousin is at a different church, and my cousin that I grew up with is going to the navy May 1st. I barely had time to take it all in because everything happened only within several months. I have gotten pretty close with everyone in the court, and I know tried to make the effort to get to know them on a personal level. Now, I'm so attached to everyone and I miss them so much. Not seeing them 2-3 times a week anymore will take extremely long to get used to. Hopefully, we will all hang out and follow up with each other so that I don't have to add the conclusion of this court to the list of things that have left me or ended.
When the party was over, I sat alone in the private room for the court. I sat on a couch, tired from screaming and dancing. It was such a bittersweet moment. The worst part about the party ending is the realization that it's all over, now. The smiles, the camaraderie, the fun, the laughs, and the dancing....it's all over. As I was sitting, I couldn't help but think that this would be the last time I'll ever be in a girl's court for her big birthday party. Now, I'll just be a guest the next debuts and sweet sixteens. I'm so happy I did this with everyone and of course it has been the greatest pleasure of my life thus far to be an escort.
I came to one last thought before the debutante walked in and talked with me....the sad truth is that things will eventually have to come to an end. Have you ever watched the final episode of a television show that you loved so much for years? Well, that's exactly what it felt like when I was sitting in that room after the party. We will grow to love some things in our lives and be very attached to it...but just like any epic series or sitcom show, everything will have to come to a conclusion and take it's bow.
I'm so thankful and overjoyed that my last court was with such a great group of people....because now I can take a bow, and finally, end with contentment.
Let me be real....this court was the most stressful ever. But, once the party came and ended, all the stress was well worth it.
This is (hands down) my favorite court. I'm probably going to get hate from all of the girls' courts I was in before. I haven't made new friends in while. Well...I haven't made new friends in a court that I wanted to follow up with. Everyone was just so awesome. I can't possibly find any other words to describe the amount of fun and joy I had with everyone being in this court.
The stress of this court was very difficult to cope with. Just ask the the debutante. It really reminded that God's plan is what we should follow. Not everything will work the way we want it to....what changes everything is whether or not we give it to God.
It's done...the practices, the stress, and the list of courts. I guess I'm announcing my retirement from courts. But this one, my last one as an escort, is truly something I did not want to end at all. I have not been doing well with things leaving or ending. My close friend moved to Florida, my older cousin is at a different church, and my cousin that I grew up with is going to the navy May 1st. I barely had time to take it all in because everything happened only within several months. I have gotten pretty close with everyone in the court, and I know tried to make the effort to get to know them on a personal level. Now, I'm so attached to everyone and I miss them so much. Not seeing them 2-3 times a week anymore will take extremely long to get used to. Hopefully, we will all hang out and follow up with each other so that I don't have to add the conclusion of this court to the list of things that have left me or ended.
When the party was over, I sat alone in the private room for the court. I sat on a couch, tired from screaming and dancing. It was such a bittersweet moment. The worst part about the party ending is the realization that it's all over, now. The smiles, the camaraderie, the fun, the laughs, and the dancing....it's all over. As I was sitting, I couldn't help but think that this would be the last time I'll ever be in a girl's court for her big birthday party. Now, I'll just be a guest the next debuts and sweet sixteens. I'm so happy I did this with everyone and of course it has been the greatest pleasure of my life thus far to be an escort.
I came to one last thought before the debutante walked in and talked with me....the sad truth is that things will eventually have to come to an end. Have you ever watched the final episode of a television show that you loved so much for years? Well, that's exactly what it felt like when I was sitting in that room after the party. We will grow to love some things in our lives and be very attached to it...but just like any epic series or sitcom show, everything will have to come to a conclusion and take it's bow.
I'm so thankful and overjoyed that my last court was with such a great group of people....because now I can take a bow, and finally, end with contentment.
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