Let It Be A Sweet, Sweet Sound.

   - 14 Lines from Love Letters or Suicide Notes  by Doc Luben

I want to leave and go somewhere far enough to see everything that I left behind vanish from the distance that I created in between me and everything else. There is no place for me to feel strong or satisfied in the midst of weak relationships. I know people who’ve left for places with more sunshine, more water, and more opportunities. A beach…..that should suffice. A breath of the fresh, salty air cleansing my mutilated mind is one of the little things I could find if I ever wanted to depart. I’m a puzzle piece trying to fit in a keyhole. I should eventually embark on a journey to find exactly where it is that I am your perfect fit, your missing piece, or exactly what you need. That is when I’ll finally realize I’m where I should be. If everything that I’ve left behind seems to suddenly reappear, then I’ll travel farther away so no one would fall into a trap just to reach for me. And maybe, I’ll t...

      - James Comer

"The effort to know a place deeply is, ultimately, an expression of the human desire to belong, to fit somewhere"         - The Invitation by Barry Lopez

In high school, I can admit that I was some sort of emotional kid. A roller coaster ride wouldn't even be close to portraying the course of events that happened to me in high school. My heart was broken a few times, and I've definitely broke hearts, too. I was playing on both sides in the game of love: the heartbreaker and the heartbroken. But, this isn't going to be some sappy post about who I've lead on, what break-ups did to me, or the girls that I pursued. At the age of sixteen, I encountered one of the most difficult times of my life. I was in a relationship that I so truly adored at the time and managed to let things go downhill. Yeah...I screwed it up big time. Eventually, the whole thing became a confusing mess in that year. As the seasons changed, so did the status of our relationship. I've always hated the idea of being branded as the bad guy. I wanted to be the sweet, caring guy that a girl wished for. Back then, I was so soft and cheesy. Seeing that ...

to those that I’ve hurt. Whether it may be recent  or in the past, I know I may have not expressed myself. I won’t make up excuses, I will only give full-hearted explanations. There isn’t any time for me  to plead for forgiveness  or another chance. I know where I can find my redemption. It’s only fair, It’s only right,  It’s only just, to express how truly sorry I am for betraying close friends,  leaving friends in the dark,  and letting loved ones hang on a cliff. For you people, my words will never be enough  to show how much  I love you, care for you, and genuinely respect you. Don’t accept my apology, if you don’t want to. Just please know, From the bottom  and utmost sincerity  of my heart I am truly sorry.  I think it’s worth it If you knew.

My full size bed  should feel so much emptier, more spacious with the distance between us. I should be missing everything  about your lips. They way they they tasted, they way the looked,  the way they revealed your pearly whites whenever you gave me your perfect, entrancing smile. I should want you here, next to me. Whether it’s in the passenger seat watching me sing and dance along to Earth, Wind, and Fire or sitting in the seat next to me at AMC watching Jay Gatsby throw the biggest party.... I should want you here. I should miss your dyed hair, the way it shone  in the summer's sun, and  the flowery, sweet fragrance it had after I waited so long for you to get out of the shower. I should miss  the simplicity of walks in the park, hand in hand, wondering what kind of lunch or dinner to eat. Your bright brown eyes, should keep me captivated. They should hold me down and charm me  into a state of weakness. When the tears puff your eyes, when the...